曳尾于涂 @Acer@social.cleverlibre.org

一个发现：我家狗子会陪我上厕所，通常会脑袋冲着我的方向趴在厕所门口，我最近发现，他看到我拿起厕纸后，就会跑掉了——聪明是很聪明的，就是太有个性，永远和你对着干。

给大家看看真菌

其实不太懂xb这类jrpg为什么要把系统搞这么复杂
查攻略or花时间自己找感觉都不是很有意思
要磨时间放通关之后不行吗
虽然jrpg的world building也找不到替代品

我有一个同事姐姐长得特别漂亮，毕业以后一直在一家知名日企工作。后来她所在的业务线，整个被取消了，其实她本来可以去差不多性质的其他日企，继续保持很好的薪资福利，但是因为毕业的时候，大家都觉得同事姐姐找了个好工作，特别厉害，可是工作了七八年以后，她发现其他同学都在自己的领域里成为了小小的专家，而自己只是在大企业里当螺丝钉，所以很向往那种有一技之长的工作，于是开始在各种乱七八糟的地方上班，比如在销售公司变成陪酒。上一份工作是在街道办，整个氛围都特别恶丑，就这种多年媳妇熬成婆的乡下小官，最把自己当回事儿，强行要求手下的人众星捧月捧着他，并且同事之间攀比嫉妒孤立特别严重。姐姐说生完孩子以后，她已经完全放弃自己的职业生涯了，就是想随便找个工作瞎干。

搬家公司今天上门来把东西打包运走了。早上打电话去问什么时候来，接线员居然说没有我的预定，吓了我一跳。后来在moving agent的名下找到了。还好还好。最后也没带太多家具，三把椅子、一个单人床这么大的榻榻米、几箱书、以前提到过的RGB机箱和一些衣服。搬家公司的人一看说，你这些一个lift van够了。结果也pack了将近四个小时。电子产品居然要一个一个登记序列号，真的好细致…

这两天在琢磨搬家的事情，大概摸清楚了这个业态。大多数情况下顾客直接对接的都是forwarder，类似于联络员，他们帮忙对接本地的搬家公司、中间的运输公司（运到港口或航空港）、货轮公司、终端的运输公司、终端搬家公司。美国市面上能处理跨国搬家的搬家公司，有National Van Lines, United Van Lines, Allied, Mayflower, 还有Rainer。Rainer是我从Reddit上找到的，感觉主要在西海岸。

昨天吃饭，另一个同事被领导留下来加班，写一个给区长的汇报，汇报的主题是区长提出的。但老板和同事本人一致决定，把汇报的内容尽量往让事儿黄掉的方向写。

于是我问同事，你加班写一个，你知道也希望会黄掉的东西，难道不会感到沮丧吗？他说他写第一个的时候，可能会有点不开心，但是到现在，已经麻了，觉得这件事没什么。

我目前还是很痛苦，没有麻。

Ok, the Chinese society makes me sick. Especially when "enjoy Japanese culture" is guilty and will be publicly humiliated.

I fixed my ten years old bicycle today, but I have no idea how to fix society and the people. The unsourced hate filled everyone (maybe the majority)'s brain. They hate rich people, they hate Japanese people, they hate Americans, they hate Trump and Biden, and they hate everyone who lives better than him, possibly the one they never met. And they indulgent violence against women (and LGTB+ people), against Ukrain civil, and against people who disagree with them. I post this in English. And hopefully, they don't have enough patience to read this. But society is going this way. And one day, the violence might be on me. Nobody can escape.

A lot of people suggest to me that I should move to another country. I can't. I just can't let it go. I still have friends and families. They won't move in the visible future or are too old to fit into a new society. They are my closest people. And I can't geographically estrange from them. I need them, and they need me, too.

I'm experiencing the change, but I can't accurately pinpoint why we're here. From the education I got, this feels not right. And what scared me more? The education is changed. When I was young, I was not told to hate people I had never met. I was told to be a human who could improve society. And the country is not the boundary. People from different countries can work together towards the same goal. Now the children start hating people they have never met, while they still like Japanese anime, American movies, etc. I don't know how they can be so contradictory, but this scared me. When they grow up, I can't imagine how society will be shaped by them.

And... Talking about "being a human who could improve society", I failed to do that. But I still try my best to be a good person, a healthy friend. I would share happiness and sadness with my family and friends. I would try my best to help them when I need, without accounting for how much I would spend and get. (So, as a computer science student, the most frequent thing I do is fixing others computers, routers, networks, LOL)

I wrote a lot in this post. I don't know what I want to express; I just wrote what I think while typing. It will possibly change nothing, or maybe the police would ask(force) me to delete this post or arrest me because of this post. I don't know. I'm just speaking, and it's my right (for now).

Anyway, I'm finished. And now it's midnight in UTC+8. Goodnight to all reached here. And thank you for your reading and your time. Have a nice day :)

今天的 pair programming session 新人有幸被我的 mentor 親自<del>揠苗助長</del>指導 live coding，結束後持續呈現 😱 🙈 😱 🙈 😱 🙈 狀態無法冷靜

我安慰他說，沒關係，我之前就是像這樣一路被 mentor 兩腳懸空的拎著往前跑，最後也是有好好的活下來

不過好像沒什麼安慰效果

比新人晚幾天報到的另一個 junior 雖然分在別的專案，但是好奇 pair programming 怎麼玩，下禮拜要來參觀。前端 tech lead 來監督的不算，負責另一個 app 的 senior 也是久仰我家 mentor，早早聽到風聲就報名了固定班底。原本為了 training program 而舉辦的小小 pair programming session，變得越來越熱鬧，有種坦派斯特開國祭的感覺 😂

今天決定直接採用 VSCode 的 live share extension 自動整理的 co-author 名單，讓所有參與 session 的人都在 commit message 打卡，我相信這就是身為工程師的正確的社交炫耀手段（喂

another German expressionist I love is Franz Marc - sadly also killed in WWI

Deer in the Forest I

请教各位象友，可否推荐一些科学饮食的blog或youtuber，最近想减重，健康生活。

笑死……

官媒批迪奥不尊重中国市场的理由是，两个星期一言不发，还关闭微博评论。
Hmmmmmm，想到了那些装聋做哑，还有那些“已开启评论精选”的官媒和政府，你们尊重过中国人民吗？

最近在做b站学习直播，因为在家待了太久了，实在感觉太孤单，cs又是一门自闭学科。直播了一周，根本没人看…
今天情绪有点焦躁，就在思考为什么我想要获得关注？想着想获得关注没有错，但得找到适合自己的方法。我比较倾向于做硬核知识输出，但我的知识输出能力真的很差，专业知识没有做过系统的笔记，以前也很排斥做presentation这种其实很能锻炼输出能力的方式。
知乎上有个回答说，每天写一点读书笔记坚持下来，就可以获得很大的提升，所以立个flag，坚持总结下每天学习的内容。

嘶吼式聊天，玩一些相亲游戏，因为笨拙程度相似，所以可以自由实验，不怕丢脸（甚至因为半斤八两意识不到笨拙，谁也别嫌弃谁。
问我一个问题，一起聊上十天八天。在床头抱着吉他给我唱歌，也给别人唱，遇到的每天都如是。