There is only the present*

It has taken 50+ years for me to get to this point of awakening

All you have of the past is a memory, some words, a video/audio recording. But, these are not the past, they are symbols and pointers

All you have of the future is an approximation of what might happen based on that unreliable past 'memory'

Live in the present moment

*do not take my word for it, find out yourself if you want to