PS 1: Before I continue I would like to warn you that this came from a recent reflection, do not feel betrayed as you have heard me say different things in the past. People change.

I'm tired of lolicon I need something else now...

If you're an anti-MAP and you read this your mind probably just thought I want to see CSEM and thought the next step after that would be for me to start wanting to have sex with real kids. In your view, I'm probably a hypersexualized porn addict who can't control myself around kids and who's just waiting for the right opportunity to act.

I'm sorry to disappoint you but that's not how it works. I've wanted all of this... from the start. And look, this is important, I didn't need to see lolicon to reach that conclusion, god I didn't even have to see porn I'm a fucking exclusive pedophile.

PS 2: If you are thinking that I would like to see people being abused, you are wrong. If I were ever to see real children having sex it would involve content with consenting children. What for this specific scenario does not exist.

But... if I want all this... what stops me from seeing CP (the illegal one in this case)? What prevents me from having sex with children? Why do I use my imagination when there are lots of kids in sexy videos and photos or literally in sexual situations?

I think the best answer here is that... maybe this is not a ladder on which the person climbs towards child sexual abuse and the only way to resolve this is to compromise the person's health to the point that they are not healthy sex life (ie chemical castration or avoidance of masturbating)

Have you ever stopped to think that maybe this is much more a machine with multiple options than necessarily a ladder?

When I say I'm tired of lolicon it doesn't mean I'll never see lolicon again. This can mean a few things: Maybe I used too much lolicon and want to explore other options (like my own imagination, erotic tales, role play with friends, legalized pictures of real kids), it could mean that maybe I'm not in the mood for lolicon and want to use my own imagination where the children's figures would be much more faithful to reality (aesthetically speaking), among N other options.

I want options that would be considered illegal and I reject them precisely because I don't agree with them. I'm anti-contact, I don't agree that children should have sex, so even if I want to have romantic and sexual relationships with children, that's not in my plans.

I don't agree that CSEM should exist, I consider it a cancer in humanity that the sooner it disappears the better for everyone (and yes that includes better for pedophiles)

Perhaps deep down, putting your ignorance aside on this subject can help you better understand how the "pedophile and masturbation" relation can really be healthy.