Wow, it's been a long time. I've missed you all, and wanted to share where I've been.

My youngest went to school. I went back to work- first as respite, and now I'm a personal support worker. I really love my job and that I can help families in need!

My father, from whom I've been estranged, became sick. He went to the hospital where we quickly learned that he had terminal cancer. Too late to do anything. I'm still angry. I don't know how he was missed.

He passed December second, just two weeks before he turned 57. We have almost finished closing his accounts, and I've paid about half his footstone

Shortly after, at work, I transitioned into palliative/ death care of a client I had since I started. She passed beginning of March. I feel honored that I helped the family, I believe I'm in the right place, but..
The things I've seen will stay with me.

My youngest had a meltdown at school. I ended up getting a call from CPS and had an investigation. I'm tired, but they aren't worried so I guess that's something.

Not even 24 hours ago, my grandmother passed away. She was fine, had a seizure, then went to the hospital. Within days, she passed. I haven't absorbed it yet.