@thor i always was the quiet kid too, but barely finished school here because i never (aside few exceptions because the teacher was good) could pay attention. i managed to then get access to university, but failed there because they converted to the batchelor/master stuff a few years earlier which consisted of 95% sitting through lectures and big tests at the end of the semester. In the few seminars and projects i did universally get good grades. so maybe it's more like SCT. the thing is, i can never concentrate on stuff if it's boring or i don't see the point. if it's interesting i can get into the hyperfocus flow thing which also feels really pleasant, maybe because it's what is missing. garden stuff also is nice because i have direct results and feel somehow "connected" if that's the right word.