>they get cancelled
>after a year of bs and moving from my parents the gov contacts me for an audit on my situation concerning the financial aids they give me
I am cursed to the point that I'm stating to believe some proprietary AI is scheming this.
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@mangeurdenuage
>takes me 8 months to get some advancement in my mental health appointments
same in germany, except if you just want the good boi pills, those are quickly prescribed..
is the audit to cut your funds?!
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@mangeurdenuage@shitposter.club
@mangeurdenuage what an utter bullshit :(
I've been on gov aid since the first quarantine, all that money went into feeding my parents/sister and heating the house.
After two year they were able to work again, the third year I got incapacitated because I gave a hand to my father and he told me to just man up which I did, which made just things worse, I should have just stopped doing anything according to my doc, I could not even lift a box, even typing on a keyboard was utterly painful.
The fourth year my dad went insane and decided to just quite everything and throw his life, wife/daughter and myself out, I went into crippling/suicidal depression and have been struggling to get any mental aid.
In four year the gov gave me ~24k, 6k which I have to give back because my father declared giving me a pension (which I didn't get).
I have been getting all that and they want to know wtf am I doing.
I'm not annoyed that they're checking I'm annoyed that I'm gonna have to explain my life all over again.
@mangeurdenuage i think i remember your injury and the shit with your dad going insane and you looking for some place to stay.
guess it's ok that they check, but i get that recounting the story again is pretty tiring. you literally have gotten your shit sorted out by pulling yourself up on your own bootstraps. precisely what the money is for i guess!
>is pretty tiring.
It is.
> your shit sorted out
Not entirely.
>by pulling yourself up on your own bootstraps
I would lie if I said if I didn't get any help, moon and many others have helped me being satiated, I'd be dead if it wasn't for them.
@mangeurdenuage i wonder if _anyone_ has their shit really sorted out completely :P
acknowledging the help you got, still you have to give yourself credit for your own achievements :)
@MK2boogaloo @mangeurdenuage what can i say, the freelance cbt therapeut i went to for a year did help and i fixed all the bullshit my parents and society fucked up for me.
@MK2boogaloo @mangeurdenuage who can? :)
thing with cognitive behavioral therapy is that they don't stir around in your psyche. you don't need much trust for it. it's been the classic "clean your room bucko" level for me. not much trust required for that. just don't follow shit blindly.
if you have a gymbro or whoever which does pull you out of shit that's great, but i didn't. i did really have no one able to do it. my family is absolutely retarded wrt mental health. a bunch of somehow functioning alcoholics or similar shit or also depressed as fuck. my then friends were going full retard with covid panic and vaxxmaxxing.
