internalized transphobia and self-doubt
Part of me feeling shitty this morning was a combination of dysphoria and imposter syndrome about the trans things. A friend shared with me this article: "All Other Trans People Are Real, But *I* Am A Terrible Fraud" https://devonprice.medium.com/all-other-trans-people-are-real-and-worthy-but-clearly-i-am-a-terrible-fraud-d1b2cb150020
I wish I had read it sooner in life. It seems a common experience. Maybe it's helpful to you.
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internalized transphobia and self-doubt
Do you think there is the possiblity that those feelings are because being trans isnt right for you? Not saying that is the case but if I changed anything about my presentation, even something like a haircut, and I felt that feelings of being an "imposter" (which I can say I can relate to in that setting) then I'd feel the style wasnt for me. Same with my clothes or anything else.
So I guess I'm wondering, assuming you want to go down this road at all, you can also just ignore the question. But how do you know that feeling isnt telling you its not for you, rather than something your suppose to suppress or force yourself against. Afterall I'd kinda expect if trans were right you'd feel like an imposter **not** to be trans instead no?
In the end I guess it comes down to what makes you happier, and if feeling like an imposter is unique to your trans state, and unpleasant, then perhaps it doesnt make you happier but makes you feel worse?
internalized transphobia and self-doubt
@freemo I know you asked this question in good faith and intentions, but it's kind of hurtfully close to the things I thought for a long time before coming out. I don't say that to imply that you meant it that way, but to explain. If you read the article you'll see why.
But I can say with good confidence that the experience of coming out *has* been a game changer for me. I could not look at myself in a mirror previously in my life, for instance.
