@sweetleaf I'm not sure what's going on but if you need to vent you have options. If you need a counselor there are options.

Please, take care of yourself. If you need help seek help.

If you need to toot I'm open, if you need to talk to a professional here's a resource. If it doesn't cover your country let me know I'll find another.

https://www.crisistextline.org/ Text HOME to 741741 to connect with a Crisis Counselor

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