DaveTLV @Surasanji@social.cleverlibre.org

@snail@spinster.xyz @georgia@spinster.xyz I'm doing my best to be a healthier person, that's one reason I got the cat.

I used to hate being at home. Lonely, hating myself, just wanting to be numb all the time.

Now, my favorite thing in the world is spending time with my cat. I feel like I have a reason to clean up and do things- even if recently I've been bad about it.

@snail@spinster.xyz @georgia@spinster.xyz Yeah, the cigarette after sex or after a meal jockey for position as 'best cigarette' for me.

But, it's just part of the coping mechanisms I built for myself just to sort of survive bipolar.

I'd start a new job every couple of years, but I still made enough to get by and be 'functional'. I was able to get by without insurance in the US until I worked in the South Carolina Prisons.

That job, plus a desire to not have to work jobs like that to get decent health care, are what ultimately led me to moving to Israel.

Took me six years before I realized I could go on medication here and not be made poor by it. Another three before I started seeing the therapist/psychologist.

I need to let go a lot of these old coping mechanisms, including smoking, but it'll be a process.

@sadladpress@freespeechextremist.com @georgia@spinster.xyz @snail@spinster.xyz Haha, no.. No.. See you'll never experience that pretty corpse. So you really got to run it ragged, get your money's worth.

@snail@spinster.xyz @georgia@spinster.xyz And it's just something I genuinely enjoy. I roll my own, I enjoy the whole process.

It's like meditative for me. It's a moment to think and to let shit settle in my head.

@snail@spinster.xyz @georgia@spinster.xyz Since I was 18. So.. 18 years.

@georgia@spinster.xyz @error @snail@spinster.xyz I smoke the occasional cigar. I used to smoke pipes, but I lost my favorite pipe and never got back into it.

@georgia@spinster.xyz @snail@spinster.xyz I've been doing a lot of that recently. I started seeing a psychologist after like 20 years of not doing that. One thing at a time. The smoking is totally a crutch, but I'll get there as soon as I can.

@georgia@spinster.xyz @snail@spinster.xyz I'm 100% serious about that statement, too. I'm really fighting the depression stuff to try and keep the apartment clean and nice for her.

@georgia@spinster.xyz @snail@spinster.xyz That's the reason I'm trying to quit.

@georgia@spinster.xyz @snail@spinster.xyz I'm trying to quit. But until then I stand with snail! :(

@georgia@spinster.xyz @snail@spinster.xyz I will stand with snail as a smoker.

@snail@spinster.xyz @sadladpress@freespeechextremist.com As I lived in the 90s, I'm a sucker for hot pink.

@snail@spinster.xyz Haha! So I was right! Scottish Oxygen! :D

@snail@spinster.xyz Oh., I thought you were smoking like a cigarette.

Then my brain woke up- smoking could mean moving fast. If she's got an inhaler she probably doesn't smoke....

@snail@spinster.xyz Ah, yes. Scottish Oxygen.

@sadladpress@freespeechextremist.com @TheMadPirate @moonshine@freespeechextremist.com @georgia@spinster.xyz @snail@spinster.xyz

She is a perfect angel-baby who is 10% DoomCat and loves to rip and tear. She will either: Run away, or fuck your leg up.

@sadladpress@freespeechextremist.com @TheMadPirate @moonshine@freespeechextremist.com @georgia@spinster.xyz @snail@spinster.xyz

Please do not sleep-punch my cat in this hypothetical visit. :( It will make me sad.

Probably not the creepy you expected.

@11112011 Ooh. Now I'm getting Illuminati vibes, I like it.

Suggestion that we all wear nice vests like 1800s robber barons. Pocket watch and monocle required.

@11112011 Is this where we're holding this year's Blitz-Con?