2021-03-03, 08:10, Wednesday
I decided to stop using alarm clock altogether, at least when there is no early class or it's online. Yes, sleep hygiene will suffer since I'm unable to wake up at a consistent time, but overall anxiety goes down this way. I remember living with an alarm clock very well: waking up at 5 am for a few years. I now understand that I wasn't really happy at the time, partly because going to bed early significantly constraied my social activities, partly because of unavoidable sleep deprivation. A good lesson nonetheless.
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Yeah, I do this too, works most of the time. My goal now is to sleep as much as my body needs, not as much as I want to. Because I want to do stuff, but my body needs to play dead for 8 hours or so :p
@academicalnerd There's this funny thing I noticed on myself: When I "explicitly ask myself" in the evening to wake up at a certain time, my body does it almost precisely on spot. I am not going into deeper reasons why that's the case (for me at least), but it works for me since ever (like 80-90% of times). Maybe it's a result of some inner anxiety, or something. Dunno.
Of course this only works when my health is OK-ish, that is, no alcohol and at least so-so not sleep deprived, or dead tired.
My problem is different: if my body decides to wake up at some time, regardless of how long I slept, I'd have a difficulty falling back to sleep. Sometimes meditation helps, but it's difficult nevertheless.