@TURBORETARD9000 Since lost happy places are lost, a final push for stuff that is good for everyone seems pertinent.

But how? All ways i know are just useless. Not gonna annoy people with no way to improve anything.

It's the same strange thing over and over again, between a rock and a hard place.

@admitsWrongIfProven One day at a time, man
Sometimes it's a slog, but tomorrow isn't today
We're doing the best we can
Sometimes our best isn't as good as it was other times
But we are trying our best, all the same

@TURBORETARD9000 Yeah, that part is clear. Ofc i am not trying to do more in a day than is possible.

But what i am rambling on about is the goal. What is it?

I used to think humanity could be saved, had to give that up to keep my sanity.

Am i alive to keep my loved ones from experiencing loss? It's a real possibility. Can't think of a realistic thing i would want. Unrealistic things, i have plenty. Those are easy. Solve world hunger. Stop warlords from waging war, just collect them on an island and let them go wild, fun!

But realistically, what do i actually want?

Ok, a bit downspiral. Tell me what you want, maybe that will cheer me up.

@admitsWrongIfProven I just want
A little house
Not tiny, but maybe two bedroom at most
And a little plot of land, surrounded by forest
Far enough away from town that might hobbies won't be disruptive, far enough that I don't get road noise, but not so far that I couldn't walk to town if I wanted to
Just a nice little plot where I can garden, maybe set up a little radio tower, and just do my own thing

@TURBORETARD9000 Yeah, that is nice. Disconnect enough, it would be possible to ignore the noise.

@TURBORETARD9000 I think i threw this at willow because i thought she would know how to deal with it. After all, she is "old as dirt", and who says that has some respect from me. I am only old as shit, a lot softer there.