@thor 10/10 thread! i never lived in a city with more than a few 100k inhabitants, but even that was unnerving.

regarding music (i think we talked about that at some point), i sometimes "enjoy" unpleasant music because it matches how i feel. maybe it reduces the dissonance between my feelings and the outside world? i like to believe this kind of music (electric wizard - dopethrone https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eaMbKZPBruU, cough - ritual abuse https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=shalI6Bd4CU) has kept me sane. there always were things like PJ Harvey (https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLPaztBWnatchKb7tlsusjcEj2ONrtN_kH) in the mix too which aren't as noisy.

mentioning pj harvey, i think john parish is an amazing producer. i really like his arrangements (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JMyes11rCq4).