@Syberia
i can't cross everything on the "outside" list, but i for sure can say that i ended up as nervous wreck. did work fine for me for decades, then burn out from _all_ the things on the "inside" list hit.
@Syberia thank you 🌼 ! it's much better now, did some behavioral therapy - which had ridiculously simple approaches for me like "just do it" and "stop thinking for a while and be in the moment".. guess sometimes the messenger counts ;)
also chamomile tea helped, i can only recommend that. if nothing else, it's good for the stomach :P